New Chapters Of Life

Happy Day ??? Embarrassing Day... More Like It

2007-08-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

Today is my 5th month together with her ... yeah !!! *Cheers to many more wonderful years ahead darling* Having You as my gf is the best thing that can happen to me le... U have indeed brought much joy to my life. I love u...forever and ever dear ...

Had lunch today with my uncles... spent $550 on food. The food was superb...Crab, Lobster, Roasted Pig... Nothing was spared.

Here comes the embarrassing thing...in the evening, I went for a pump in malaysia, and boy was the jam v.bad on the return journey. Trust me .. even when I think about what happened, I think its funny, but deep down.. it hurts so bad. U want to find out what happened, u just have to ask me. I won't be telling exactly what happened on line because its really humiliating.. made my good day like crap... sish..

I really should seek some help to counter this problem. I can't and I will not let this happen EVER EVER again.

Blogging again ??

2007-08-04T09:41:00.000-07:00

Blogging seems to be quite a chore, its seems like my blog is stagnated for ages and boo, suddenly I am back to post one or two blogs and then... stop again :-) it seems that the lazy bug has gotten into me.

Things have changed since the last blog. Well, I am still attached to that same beautiful girl that I was talking about, but now I have officially ORD from the force... YEAH! and NTU is about to start in a couple of days time. *crap* no more slacker life, no more afternoon swim, no more late nights, no more spa. All gone !!

I have heard so much about NTU that makes my head spin. I have someone telling me that life in there is rather slack, on the other, I hear that its super "siong"(tedious)... so which is which? I guess the only way to know is that I experience it myself.

Finally gotten my notes for my course. The moment I saw that Math ... Pengz *faint* I have to really talk myself out of that stupid mentality that maths sucks. Actually, its fun considering that the instructions are step by step and the questions are direct, but then again, if its direct, it shouldn't be called maths right ? Can anyone enlighten me on how do I conqure the fear of that subject ?? Please ???

Guess who's back

2007-04-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

Hello all, its been awhile since i last posted my entries online. gee.. wonder where i went ? I was so busy trying flirt with this super cute girl. My gosh she is just so beautiful. Love her eyes, her smile, and most importantly, I love her... :P

Well ladies and gentlemen, i am proud to annouce that Elvin is finally attached *yeah* and for good I have found the love of my life, someone whom would love me for me and really treasure me. A toast to happy days ahead darling.... I will love u and promise to never let u go. You mean so much to me and I am really looking forward to the days ahead together.

ORD is coming so so soon le.. its a matter of months before i take off the blue uniform and return back to my pumpkin life again. Going to NTU and study lor... its time to kick into high gear and really start studying (Who am i trying to bluff, elvin doesn't study...opps !) Really can't wait to be in NTU so that I can see my dearest every day. How nice it would be if i could see her cheerful face everyday. Sadly, i have to wait...counting down the months... but good things are worth the wait right.

Really can't stop thinking about her...I really treasure every moment that she is present beside me. Thank God for Her...

Xue Qi... U have been the light of my life, having u are the happiest moments. We will walk hand in hand and never let go of each other ya..we will have each other to cherish and to hold, in sickness and in health.... I LOVE U DEAR

Exams are Finally Over

2006-11-11T20:16:00.000-08:00

After almost 1 & 1/2 years of not taking any academic exams, I am proud to say that I have completed 3 exam papers... *smiles* To many it may seem that Elvin its just 3 papers, whats the big hoo haa about it ? well my rebutal to them would be this, try taking mugging for exams after not studying for a period of time. You would realise how difficult it can get.

Unit retreat is tomorrow, wondering what cheesy ideas that my boss had planned. A retreat a ViVo City .... Huh !.. thats right at Vivo City. First time in my life I ever had a retreat at a shopping centre. Totally ran out of ideas ? I suppose so. The impression that I have of retreat is as the name suggest, retreat to some quiet or secluded spot in SG or malaysia, and sit down to talk about plans for the unit in the coming year. Oh well.. I just have to follow the flow.

Quit Prawning Around

2006-11-01T12:35:00.000-08:00

Grr... I can' t believe it, I have been like spending so much time away from my books. Crap, Exams are just like a week away and I am spending my time catching prawns, lazing around.Time to pull up the socks and start studying for the exams. Gotta get good grades so that I can have a sense of satisfaction.

My Bioclock is going topsy turvey. Times when I have to be awake, I am asleep. When its time to sleep, I am awake. What is going on with me ? The worst thing is, at night I do feel tired and want to sleep but when I finally lie down on my bed, I just can't sleep. I think its too much of late night activities in the recent months ... *grinz*

I think its time I make a resolution. I will from now on sleep early and tune my life back on track. I think its time I spend more time with my books then with that stupid prawn rod. Since i am in a phase of changing my life, I think its also time to go back to the treadmill and EXERCISE. I don't wanna be fat and round anymore. I know how it feels, and i don't want it to happen to me again !

Food Recommendation :

Dou Jiang, You Tiao (Soya Bean and Dough Fritters)
Geylang Lorong 9 and Lorong 11
Yong He Eating House

This 24-hour coffeeshop serves soya beancurd, and it is definitely more popular than Rochor Beancurd. Order yourself a bowl of soya beancurd in sweet syrup and some you char kway to go along.

Hazy Daze

2006-10-24T05:19:00.000-07:00

When will the haze ever end ? How long more do we have to suffer, breathing in all the smog ? Its starting to have adverse effect on my nose. Got this clogged feeling, must be nasial infection again.

Grr... I wish all these would just end. I really wish to see the clear blue sky and the bright shining sun. God, hear the cry of your people. I am sure you have a heart of mercy for us.

I know the haze in Singapore is not as bad as other countries eg. Malaysia or Indonesia but still, this seems like the never ending problem. Year after year, it is recurring since 1997.

Sometimes I wonder why must they resort to burning the trees to clear the forest. I know if they do it the natural way by torching the forest, the ground would be furtile but I am sure that modern fertilizers can do a similar job too.

I really thank God that at least the government of Indonesia is doing something about the situation, but are they doing enough ? I believe other than taking a reactive role by trying to extinguish the hot spots, they should take a more proactive role of educating the people of the adverse effects of torching the forest. Their actions not just affect the neighbours, they too affect themselves. They had to close the airport in Jakarta and with every closure, airlines that fly to Jakarta have to pay compensations resulting in losses which could be eaily saved.

I really hope that a huge blanket of rain would just fall over Asia, extingush the flames and at the same time clear the air. Make this thing stop...Haze....

Counting Down The Days

2006-10-04T11:13:00.000-07:00

Alright...ladies and gentlemen, we are down to the final 3 days to my 22nd Birthday. Let the countdown begin. Time to party, let my hair down... but wait, Don't i have to submit my 3 assigments due next week ??? Crap..there goes the whole plan of a party.

3 Assigments and i am proud to say I have only started on 1 and its only 3/4 complete. How reassuring huh...What more is, I will be going to malaysia together with my parents... Awww... Going to miss her ... How ??? I wish I can just drag her along to Malaysia. How about pack her in my suitcase and bring her along...haha :P I would be like super happy if she could make it ... but then again ... hmm....

Sometimes I wonder, am I doing the right thing... the feeling in me is just so right... I haven't felt so strongly about it before. I will never regret my decisions, and I will stand true to it. Whatever I said were words that came straight from the heart... *grinz*

Do keep me in prayer,especially during this "tough" times ya ? I am sure daddy has a solution....

Moment of Lonliness

2006-09-26T09:30:00.000-07:00

Many days have come and gone, still am sitting here waiting for her. Have not heard from her in ages, just wondering how she has been. I really miss her smiles, her laughs and the joy that we shared. It didn't seem very long ago and thinking back of the beautiful memories really bring back a smile on my face.

IMF comes to an end... Freedom Regain

2006-09-21T09:17:00.000-07:00

IMF is finally over... No more late nights and no more burning of weekends *hurray !!* I finally can get my life back on track. Regular work hours again !!! Yesh !

Many of you have been constantly hogging me for an update. I know it has been ages since, but IMF took up a huge chunk of my time. I am sure things about me have changed ever since the last entry. My eye bags got thicker... I am more lethargic ... thats for sure. Would love to take a weeks' leave to rest up and get fully charged up for the battle ahead, unfortunately that wouldn't be, because once IMF ends, ranking starts.

Back to piling under mountains of paper work, staring at that 15" CRT monitor and cruching in figures.

Will be writing a feature on my zoo trip and Kelvin's birthday soon. So keep reading.. I promise to update on a more regular basis. *Smiles*

Anyway heres something to tickle your funny bones

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Much awaited

2006-07-28T07:42:00.000-07:00

Finally after 3 weeks after i passed out, I recieved my ceremonial sword...Hee hee :p Went all the way to PLB to get the sword and get all the paper work processed. Cost me $349 without casing and engraving. Gonna get the casing done up with all the nice accessories then put it on display @ home...

my teeth is kindda hurting cause I went to AH to get my teeth polished and check on. My appointment was 11.30 am but arrived at 12pm *opps* cause I overslept... hee hee :P The night before I only have 2 hours of sleep cause i was slept in the office and couldn't get to sleep till about 4 am and woke up at 8.30am.

When I went to the consultation room, the dentist gave me a nice tongue lashing for being late... and she was telling me how much it was not appreciated of me coming late and all... I felt really bad :( but i didn't do it intentionally. Anyway she did a fantastic job with my teeth and now its whiter than before ...*Bling Bling*

Looks like the week ahead is going to be really packed with preps for IMF world bank. gotta brief my POs on tuesday on the deployment and manpower movement for the entire Operation. So that means, this weekend is burnt preparing the presentation slides and handouts...grrr !!! why ??? I wanna go out and have fun but can't.. quite low life eh : ( quickly get over this phase and move on.

The guy from MDIS called me up to inform me that my course will be pushed back to two weeks later. the reason, oh there we have some problems arranging classrooms for your class. I was like WHAT ! I didn't expect this to happen in such an established institution. I just don't understand why didn't they foresee this problem? They give me the impression that they don't even know who is using which class until the very last moment then they drop the bomb shell.

Happy Birthday Kelvin

2006-07-23T00:29:00.000-07:00

Hello all...just came back from a long nite. Went to Dbl O to celebrate Kelvins' 24th Birthday. Kelvin congratulations on turning 24, you are one year older now yah... wishing you all the best in your endeavours and may God bless you abundently.....

Arrrived @ O bar around 10pm...the party wasn't really happening yet and the music was so so only. The DJ was spinning R&B but the prob was that he didn't quite mix the songs properly so during transitions before the next song, there were like gaps of noise..*if you know what I mean*. Kelvin, Azly and Dingy ordered alcoholic beverages (Vodka Lime, vodka sprite and one bottle of special brew beer). Since I was driving, i settled for Shirley Temple*responsible driver hee hee:P*

We were joined by Eugene and his gf *Mabeline*...but that punk didn't want to join us inside cause he don't like noisy places, so we had to go outside to meet him. Had alot of fun taking photographs and trying to light the cakes <--Realise its cakes not cake... *hee hee* cause Dingy and I bought a mango cake, whereas Eugene and Mabeline bought a chocolate cake...

Poor Eugene kanna sabotage by his gf to finish the cake, cause we were playing a guess a number and she kept giving us the wrong numbers so as a result the forefeit was to eat a piece of cake...but since she didn't want to eat so eugene had to eat it up on her behalf...The both of them are really a very cute couple, lots of fun being with them.

Headed back into O bar to chill out for awhile before going up to Dbl O....The music was much better there and obviously with good music, the crowd will be there. Headed for the dance floor and danced the heck out... *hee hee* Azly is a very good dancers and he gets the girls too.. hee hee :p I would say that among the malay guys I've seen, I would say he looks quite handsome.

Anyway we hang around till 4am before we went to Jalan Besah for Tim Sum. Seriously its one of the best tasting Tim Sum I had in Singapore. Its located at a dark dingy back alley but still the food is good. Had Cheong fun, Siew Mai, Har Kaow, Century Egg congee..

Headed home at about 6 after sending everyone home, and by the time i got home, I was dead exhausted, plopped on the bed and slept till 3 pm...

Will post some photos in my next entry

More Photos...

2006-07-15T23:06:00.000-07:00

As promised... I have finally uploaded some photograph of my Passing out parade and also some extra goodies *hee hee :P*

Pirates of the Caribbean 2 is a totally crap movie, wasted 2.5 hrs of my precious life sitting at that toopid cinema, watching that toopid show...and the most stupid thing was I never even watch part 1...*grrr* Never mind but to equalise things out... I WENT SHOPPING ! Oh yeah ! I shop until Xing Fu Kou Fu (Heart Happy, Mouth Happy), Trust me ..Woman have found the best way of destress... and guys its time we should start shopping too *retail therapy* ... *oh no, Whats wrong with me* for those people who have known me before I met Xiaoyan, u will know how much i detest shopping... but now.. I seem to be always wanting to go shopping. Actually, its really a good thing, cause firstly you get to walk around(exercise) and secondly, you get to see alot of cool stuff...like clothes, accessories, girls *opps! Did i mention girls... ??? Must have slipped my finger...* but seriously, I saw like couple of really nice dresses and skirts that would look really nice on her. Hee hee :p

I feel that having a gf is really nice, because you have someone to love, have someone to be with you, have her as your "bestest"*bad english* friend, your companion, basically she is your everything in one.... I am wondering who this girl might be *hmmm....* I am sure daddy in heaven knows whats best... so daddy, I leave it to you yah, you make the choice.... *smiles* She is gonna have the very best of me...and i will not make the same mistakes that i have made before, and I am sure, Daddy will be there to oversee the relationship....

As promised, here are the photos...

My room mate & I before POP Parade

Kah chuan and I in Mess Kit (No.2 Uniform)

Dining In @ the Harmony Hall

Soup Of The Day...Starters

Check out the Dessert...Nice eh...

T-Shirt I bought @ Freshbox

Another T-shirt from Freshbox

Black polo Tee from Wet Oven..Looks plain but check out the logo....

I like the no. 7, for the very obvious reasons cause I was born on the 7th of October *hint hint*, My anniversary date is also on the 7th of Feb, and the day I broke up is also on the 7th of April... Jesus rested on the 7th day... see 7 Hahaha...

Nothing But Pics, Pics, Pics and More Pics

2006-07-11T08:50:00.000-07:00

Hello, I finally got my hands on my passing out parade photographs, and I shall post up 6 photographs for your viewing pleasure. I will continue to save more photographs and upload into the blog..I promise *cute smiles*

Argh....I don't know what's wrong with my body. After coming back from work, I had this super painful, cramping in my tummy. At first I thought was that I ate too little for dinner but subsquently the pain slowly vanished but then it followed with this dull "washing machine" feeling plus a little pain and discomfort. To top it all up, I started passing wet stools... *grr* Shit is basically flowing out of my ass man *not a very pretty sight*..I am like running in and out of the toilet the moment that stupid feeling comes, and I have to like control my sneezing and coughing or else.. shit will start leaking out my ass *piak* Its like my butt muscle can't control the A hole any more... Should I like bring my pillow and laptop into the toilet and camp there tonight ? *bad idea* Gosh ... this is worst then a girl having her mensturation man...Girls trust me ... I understand the agony you poor things have to go thru...cause I have seen it for my very own eyes, seeing my ex-gf having to stuff pills just to control the pain... my heart really breaks when I see that... Seeing her so poor thing, so cute and adorable but have to suffer so much *heart break* well seeing is one thing... I am experiencing some pains in the tummy too... I know its not a good comparison but hey, at least I can feel a fraction of what you girls go thru... and for that i sympathise with the girls... A huge salute goes out to all you out there..*Salute*

Daddy what is wrong ? Whatever it is, health is in my body in Jesus name...AMEN !

Bowling Day

2006-07-09T04:42:00.000-07:00

I feel so tired... came home at about 5.30am this morning. Last night, I attended the funeral till quite late and after that we adjourned to Chomp Chomp @ Serangoon Gardens for tea....

Germany Won !!! Ole, Ole, Ole.... 3 : 1 haha :P Kindda expected a result like that. Even though I am anti-football, I personally thought that Germany really played v.well despite pressure from the home crowd. Great job....

QY woke me up this morning to go for bowling. I was actually kindda amazed that he managed to book out this week cause he seems to have the funnist schedule among all of the 3MM gang... He doesn't have like fix book in, book out days... Which make meeting up very difficult.

Well Kel and Hui came along too... Had alot of fun talking, catching up with them on life, and obviously, BOWLING... the mother of all enjoyment...hee hee :P *winks*

Opps.. I didn't go to church today.. Oh no it begining to be a little to regular already. Gotta stop giving excuses to myself to not go to church, its so wrong. It like I feel v.dry in the spirit when I don't go to church. The word of God is somewhat like a lubricant that keeps you life moving smoothly. Next week is a must to go... NO MORE SKIPPING CHURCH

Really miss her so much... haven't got a chance to meet her this week cause we are busy with our own agenda, but hopefully there will be sometime soon when we can meet to catch up on things...I really miss her company and her presence..It makes me v.happy.

First Day

2006-07-07T10:04:00.000-07:00

Today is the first day of being an Inspector, trust me, it may look glamourous but with great powers comes great responsibilities. The roles that me as an AMPO have to undertake may sound easy, but when it comes to handling people, its not so easy because you have to understand their feelings and where they are coming from. I have got to see things in their prospectives too rather than forcing them to perform duties which they might not like.

I finally got myself a brand new, HP laptop... cool eh *winks* the specifications are quite cool...Duo Core 1.8GHz, nVidia Ge Force 7400, 15" wide screen, Altec Lansing speakers. Its like a workhorse and a party boom box all in one...Gotta check it out.

I really have to thank my father for giving this gift to me. Certainly with this new laptop, it will help me to complete my lecture notes and at the same time give me the entertainment that I need.

POP Oh !!!

2006-07-06T09:59:00.000-07:00

Finally the most eagerly anticipated day has arrived... I am gonna PASS OUT ! *yesh* You can never sense that kindda satisfaction level that I am feeling right now, unless of course you train 10 months as an OCT.

At about 4pm today, it was the start of wonderful things to come. All dressed in the number 1 ceremonial uniform, stading by to march into the parade square to show off to all in HTA what the OCTs are made of... 5 days of rehersals, many hours of sweat and blood, under the hot sun, this was it.

Speaking for the OCTs, I can safely say, the drills were flawless. We executed every command with razor sharp precision. Not for getting the slow march, literally took the audiences' breath away. The crowd was clapping as we march past the grand stand, imagine the rush of adreneline though your body, the excitement, the joy, the moment. Words are just not enough to explain the feeling of euphoria.

Thanks to my 2 very wonderful friends, Kasaya and Ting ting for taking time off to grace my commissioning parade. It was fantastic having you guys there to share the joy with me in celebration of this momentous occasion. I will be sending the photos to you all soon yah... *smiles*

Dining in was great, was dressed in the No.2 Mess Kit. Had a 4 course dinner prepared by the good people from Grand Copthorne Hotel. Our Guest of Honour, came to take a couple of photographs with my parents and I. He also presented all the OCTs with the certificate of appointment. Proud moment for everyone.

Well tomorrow is the day I begin a new chapter in my NS life. I will assume new roles and new positions. What ever uncertainties future may throw at me, I am sure that God has his provisions for me, because if he gave me the rank, I am sure he will also give the ability to take on that challenge. I believe Daddy is a very practical God, he won't throw me in to deep waters if he knows that I can't swim.

I know its been awhile since I wrote my last entry, my most sincere apologies...*grinz* its not that I have forgotten about the blog, neither was I lazy, but its just that I didn't have a laptop because it has to be handed over to the juniors...so that exaplains the silence... Anyway over the week, I had a chance to have lunch at SPOM, so I have attached pictures of my little outing to give you all a visual treat ya....*Smile*

I kindda miss her, I was hoping that she could make it to my commissioning parade, but sadly, she has her own appointments and I understand that she is busy. Well, even though she's not there physically, but its alright, I am thankful that she messaged me this morning. More than not, I really hope to catch up with her. Its just that we have been spending very little time lately talking online, or even meeting up. *sighs* well at least now i don't have to bunk in anymore, I am sure I have more free time for her..

I am So So So Tired

2006-07-02T00:49:00.000-07:00

I really can't belive it, I just woke up after an almost 16 hours sleep marathon. Other than periodically waking up to go to the toilet and answer phone calls and messages, I was in Slumber land...*yawnz* That is what one day of duty can do to you .... *gee* I am now so refreshed after that long rest*smiles*. I hope I am able to sleep well tonight too cause tomorrow morning, hee hee hee... its drills drills drills and more drills gonna ber very very tiring.

Passing out on thursday... YESH !*punching fist in the air* Its may not be as grand as OCS, but still we are going to do the slow march, and in addition to that, we are going to use slow march and form from 4 rows to 10 rows in slow much. Its gonna be something that OCS don't have... *gee*

Oh no ... i didn't attend church today...*opps* I was just too tired... *excuses Excuses* I was really really hoping to go but the mind is willing, but the body is weak Haha :P...

Happy Youth Day

2006-07-01T07:38:00.000-07:00

My leg aches, my body is sore and I am so tired. Just came back from duty at the National Stadium. Today, was the celebration of the 40th Youth Day Celebration, and the last youth day in the national stadium before they tear it down.

Yesterday night was the best, went out for supper with her, her sister and her classmate. Had a fantastic night watching football *jeering at Agentina..Germany Rocks*, playing card games *i realised my math sucks big time* and basically slacking around. Finally got a taste of Oreo Frap after so long...its like everytime we go there, its always sold out but Priase God, this time around, its still available *hee hee :P*

I don't know why, but I just feel very happy seeing her...maybe its just that we have so many things in common and basically the way we think and feel about things are somewhat similar too... Some times I feel that its not the words that are spoken between us but the hand gestures,the smile, these are the thing that speaks volumes...I realied that words are not all that necessary, but that having the connection with each other is more important.

I really thank God for her as she has been a blessing in my life... Really miss you so much... Be Blessed my Dear

So near but yet so far

2006-06-26T16:54:00.000-07:00

The countdown begins to my POP, effectively 8 more days to go before I become a comissioned officer...Yesh !*punch fist into the air* Initially before my break-up with XY, I actually thought that my GF can witness my grand parade and join me in celebrating my passing out, but I guess now that I do not have a GF, it wouldn't be much to celebrate too...*sigh* Daddy, I trust u that everything will just turn out right and hopefully, a special someone would attend my parade...

Finished 2 papers, but 2 more to go on thursday. To God be the glory, the first 2 papers were not too difficult. I am just praying that the last 2 papers wouldn't be so tough too... Once that is done, it will be freedom..*shout out loud*

My eyes just can't keep open, I slept like for 9 hours last night but still feel tired. I guess its because of swimming, I totally exhausted myself out. Talking about sports...I haven't been on the lanes lately *hmmm...* I think my balls are turning mouldy *Don't think it in the crude sense* I shouldn't give excuses for not bowling anymore, I shall go bowling this friday like it or not. I should start training or else my arms will start getting flabby *actually thats kindda cool* Anyone wanna join me ?

Gotta rest now...Gonna study in the afternoon after my beauty rest...Chows..

Its been a long while

2006-06-24T12:00:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys for not updating my blog for almost a week. It just that I have been so busy with preperation for the examinations that I didn't even have time to take a breath...*shacked out* and the best thing, coming monday and wed, I have 4 papers to take but I have not even started studying for it... *shake head*

Watched Garfield today, so much laughter...The plot was really very funny *haa haa* I would rate it a 3.5/5 movie so yah it there is no other movie to watch well.. Garfield 2 might just be it...

Haven't heard from her for awhile...kindda miss her... *sigh* its just that recently I guess she must be so busy that well.. she didn't even have time to reply me... Whatever it may be, I just pray that everything goes well for her... *smilez*

Could this be it ?

2006-06-18T05:07:00.000-07:00

This morning, I recieved a call at about 3.30 am with the most unexpected news. She has just broken up with him...and she was crying on the phone. My heart was so moved, I really couldn't help but go down to her place just to be with her so that I can comfort her, be her shoulder to cry on.

The thing was I drove all the way down to her place, but she told me she wanted to be alone so that she could spend time with God. I supported her but I just stood by downstairs so that if she needed me I could be there for her. Spent the night in the car...just talking to God, thinking about her...

I don't know if I should feel happy or should I feel sad that she is now single cause I have been waiting for this day for a very long time, but still I wish most of all that she can find the true happiness throught Christ...

I guess, whats more important is that her spiritual walk be strengthen through this ordeal but just what her to know that I will be there for her and that I care for her greatly. Whatever her decisions may be, I will definately Support her.

Do take care my dear... Just want you to know that Daddy and Elvin Love You Lots Ya.

Cars.. A must Watch

2006-06-17T09:13:00.000-07:00

Just came back from watching the newly Pixar Animated Movie "Cars"... I would give it a 5 out of 5 star rating for its detailed and life like animation and obviously the good story plot. There are just so many things that you can learn from watching cartoons...like all things in life, we have to really slow down and look at people and things around you. Actually there are so much for you to appreciate and see when you take things slow rather than living life on the fast track. Another thing I have learnt is that there are more important things than winning.. Being 1st doesn't make you the real champion but being a true help and influence to people in need and sacrificing your goals to help is better....That the true winner...

I observed that my blog is plagued with so many spelling and grammatical error.. *gosh* Should make the effort to do a spell check everytime I finish one entry. Really apologise for that... Sometimes when I look at my own Blog i realised that ... eh ... I can make that kind of mistakes too... hee hee :P I am not perfect but I will try my very best ya... A thousand Sincere Apologies..

Well the big day is drawing nearer and nearer.. POP is coming ... this is what we have been waiting for ... Its the day we exhange our 2 bars for 2 pips... and obviously with greater power comes greater responsibilities... and when it comes to the firing squad, get ready to be shot a couple of times... Well... this is life ba.. have to learn to bite the dust, pick up the pieces and move on...

Lack Sleep...

2006-06-13T16:37:00.000-07:00

Saggy eye bags, glump face, brain not thinking straight. Signs and symptoms of lacking sleep. My right arm is aching from all the writing that I did last night. Try to imagine updating a pocket diary since the month of march till present... Thats like 4 months worth of history to be written...*gosh* Stayed up till 2.30am last night, struggling to complete the pocket diary but thank God at least I managed to complete it....*phew...*

Heard news that we are going to have our 2 exams cramp into 1 week... Last 2 papers before we can POP. There is so much to study but so little time...guess I have to confine myself over this weekend and study alittle bit.. no shopping, no going out. but then there are so many things out there for me to see and buy *retail therapy* Have to make a stand, this is the time I really have to tell myself no means no... No qusetions asked.. hee hee :P only this once...

Finally signed up and made payment for my course in MDIS. I am going to take an Advance Diploma in Mass Communications... YESH ! Its a 9 months course and the diploma is issued by Oaklahoma City University *cool* I get to pursuit what I really wanted to do all these while. Even though its not a degree but at least its a step in furtherance of achieving my goal of a Degree in Mass Com right ?

I have got this stirring feeling in my heart, something like in a washing machine...I wonder why ? I am starting to miss her so bad...Is this thing called love ? hmm.. I am not sure.. Haven't got this feeing for a very long time....Was so excited when she replied my message...*yesh* I really hope to see her soon. I know she has been busy lately but ya certainly will treasure the little time that we spent together

Daddy, I really hang on to your promise to me ... "Elvin, Don't judge the situation based on the circumsatances now, but judge it on the finish work of Jesus on the cross"

Wedding Bells

2006-06-11T09:12:00.000-07:00

Justin and Cherine.. Congratualtions on your wedding ya..May the Lord Bless you with a blissful and wonderful marriage ahead...To God be the Glory...AMEN ! The wedding dinner was fantastic. For couples planning to get married, Conrad Hotel is the place. The atmosphere is so grand..and the food is not bad..and the service staff are rather friendly, so all in all, I would give my experience a 4/5 rating

The old neighbours are great. Had a ball of a time interacting and having fun. Basically the little ones that used to be running around together with me, are no longer little anymore ... Everyone is so grown up now.. They have grown to prettier and more handsome.

Went to church alone today and seriously, the feeling was not so bad. I really enjoyed my time listening to the Gospel being preached by Pastor Lian.. Fantastic message preached today... and Praise and Worship was lead by Darlene of Hillsongs church ... *woohoo* She came all the way from down under together with her family to visit New Creation Church ... Praise God...

I am really ministered by something Pastor Lian said in her preaching :" it doesn't matter if it was the right or wrong choice, my fault or your fault but God said ONLY BELIEVE that God can make ALL things beautiful in his time" Belive that God can show you his GLORY... Praise Jesus !!! *amen and amen*

Police Week Carnival

2006-06-09T10:18:00.000-07:00

Hey Hey .. Its the Police Week Carnival.. happening from 9 June to 11 June at Old Police Academy @ Thomson road... There is like this huge pasar malam which has like games and food.

So of course.. when there are things happening in the police force, we are certainly put on duty...and guess what, my duty was to take charge of the fun-fair rides. Stood there from 4pm all the way to 8pm... but obviously there are breaks at intervals of 30 mins..*yesh* which means I get to spend my $15 worth of coupons on FOOD !.. I had Char Kwey Tiow, a Ramly Burger special + Cheese...*smiles*

There are also exhibition booths set up by the various land divisions and I stumbled on some really cool "toys" that most big boys wanna get their hands on ... hee hee :P

Stood down from duty @ about 8pm and then ... thats when the party began.. Qi Yang and I went down to Sentosa.. to meet up with ting ting and her bf.. to attend i Weekly magazine concert.. My objective.. to spy .. haha :P it was a Siloso Beach and the sound was fantastic.. I learnt alot from the experts ... like the arrangements of lightings and setting up of sound system and event management.. and at the same time to support my ex-SP friends who were performing in the Superband Competition... You Guys Rock ... *woo hooo !*

Gotta prepare for my show tomorrow... I am going to use my voice to terrorise the ppl of Bt Panjang... hee hee :P when I set up my system tomorrow, I am going to sing my lungs out.. *Smilez*

IPPT

2006-06-07T07:49:00.000-07:00

My 2nd Last IPPT...nothing short of a miracle..
I know that I didn't fair as well but still I give the credit to Daddy in heaven. I have not been exercising since I came back from OBS..

Want to know my results ?

Sit-up : 50 Rep
Pull-up : 12 Rep
Shuttle Run : 10.3sec
SBJ : 216cm
2.4 run : pass

So all in all, its a pass for this IPPT... To God be the glory !!!

I don't know why I keep thinking of her lately...I miss her so bad...My heart just feel so sad...Messaged her last night, well Praise God she did reply me this time. I am really thankful for that..U know I jumped out of bed the moment i heard my phone rang.. and I was so happy to see her message sitting in my inbox waiting for me to read...*smiles*

Well I am happy to see that she is doing fine, but I hope someday she will know that there is someone waiting for her... still loving her ... When that day comes, I will certainly be the happiest person on earth...There are so much of me waiting to give to her...

Anyway, my body is aching all over... my legs from running 2.4 this morning and arms from swimming in the afternoon..I am totally exhausted...my eyes just feel like shutting... *shut eyes*

This friday have to perform duty... from 2pm to 10.30pm so basically a friday evening burnt...but thank God that I do not have to book in on Sun, so that means I can attend Uncle Soo's son wedding dinner *yesh yesh* They are finally getting married..not bad eh ! Have been waiting for this day to come for a very long time... I am sure they make a very lovely couple... they have been like attached for as long as I have and they have such a happy ending... *sigh* I wish them all the best and may God bless their marriage and may it be a Blissful one...

My system is going to shut down soon.. gotta hit the sack...

Slack day

2006-06-05T07:55:00.000-07:00

*yawnz* today is a super slack day. Nothing much to do so indulge in my favorite past time.. SLEEP !... but the thing is, I don't seem to get enough... Since there was no class in the morning, went back after PT, showered and plop on the bed and.. SLEEP... after class in the afternoon, plop on the bed and sleep....

I think sleep is good, because it very time consuming.. Its like time passes very fast especially when you are sleeping. When I plop on the bed, it could be like 2 pm and when I wake up .. its like 6 pm already... and the best part.. when u sleep, you will dream.. maybe thats for me ba...I dreamt of her again...the dream was the best...why must she have a bf now ?? why ??? argh... I hope things would turn out better soon... but I have to learn to trust daddy...God certainly has plans for me and he has my best interest at heart...

Hmm.. was kindda deciding since I couldn't do a degree in Mass Com.. how about do a diploma instead.. Called up MDIS today to enquire about their Mass Com courses and there are 2 very attractive options.. 1)Diploma In Mass Com 2)Advance Dip in Mass Com.. which to pick.. I am sure most of you would say why waste time on a Dip, go for the A.dip instead.. but the issue is .. there are some basics that I will be missing out if I head straight to A.Dip but then A.Dip is more attractive cause it one step higher than Dip..hmm..why am I thinking so much.. I should ask Daddy later.. hee hee :p *smiles*...The course is going to be held at the UniCampus at Stirling Road so I hope that my postings will allow me to work nearby so that I don't have to rush for classes...For the Dip Course ..its a 12 months course and for A Dip its a 9 months Course... but the course starts in July and August respectively..I hope to enroll fast so that I do not have 2nd thoughts...*hee hee* I really like doing Mass Com cause its in my field of interest...Journalism, Human Relations...Love them...oh and Praise God, for Home Team NS members, we get a $300 discount off our course fee.. so .. instead of paying $$3255 for it, I will be paying $2955 incl. GST

Well if you have suggestions on which is a better choice, maybe drop me a message on my tag-board ya...Thanks

Busy Busy !

2006-06-04T07:49:00.000-07:00

Arghh..my long weekend.. its over..Its so fast... this week has been so packed with so many activities... thursday serviced my laptop, friday went to pick QY up from camp... Sat.. had show @ Bt Panjang and Sunday ... back in camp... Time really flies...

I went back to church for the very first time after the break-up..and I am thankful that I went today.. Pastor Joshua preached a fantastic message about God smiling at me all the time and knowing that he loves me.. The message really spoke to me...I felt very ministered and comforted by the preaching.... and the praise and worship session was the BEST ! Angie led worship today... Praise God.. Heavenly voice...Thanks Daniel, I really enjoyed church and the time spent talking...there was so much to catch up huh...

Samantha Samantha... Thanks so much for sharing this weekend with me... even though we didn't get to drink our Oreo Frap.. but hey we had fun chatting huh... thanks... oh yah next week its ice-skating week yah.. haha :P I want to see u in action on the ice.. hee hee :P *Potential Figure Skater leh*... I hope everything goes well with u yah.. and I will constantly be keeping you in prayer .. and Priase God .. Your mom is healed in Jesus name yah.. so no worries k ? Daddy is in control... *smilez*

Kindda tired now.. gotta rest... now that i am back in camp, I am sure i will be able to update my bloggie more regularly.. Good Night

PDP...Its Over !

2006-06-01T20:28:00.000-07:00

Time really flies when you are enjoying yourself.. hee hee :P haven't been blogging for the past 2 days cause have been busy...

PDP was happening ... the lights.. the ceremonial No.1 uniform.. the crowd...the feeling is something very very special...We are the Guard Of Honour... all eyes are on the GOH...The drill was outstanding... I wouldn't say its the best but we definately stole the lime light...

Oh.. the most embarrassing thing happened during the break between the parade and the grand finale....I walked into a female toilet... *crap* I guess I was thinking about something and my mind was totally pre-occupied...Walking in ... I saw a lady standing at the mirror.. then i was thinking to myself .. am i in the wrong place or she is in the wrong place.. then reality hit.... where are the urinals.. then i was like .. opps ... sorry .. and dashed out of the toilet... That lady started laughing .. and when I re-thinking about the thing.. yah the situation was kinda funny too...

hmm...had lots to think lately.... 5 years ago before I met Xiaoyan, I have actually liked someone ...but I guess I was too afraid to tell her...cause I was afraid to ruin our friendship...and she was so complete.. a girl that I really really wanted...but I felt she deserved someone better than me that was why I left it that way... then along came Xiaoyan... to tell the truth, she was the one that really moved my heart...the things she did... to get to know me .. to try to be with me.. to love me made me feel very special... felt that finally I belonged to someone and she really loves me...She really showed me how to love someone...When things just started to swing into momentum, its all over... sometimes...I think human beings a very selfish. Cause when they look for a partner, they think about themselves all the time..like for example... now that Xiaoyan is attached.. she looks for someone who thinks like her... talks like her... but why doesn't she think about me... Difference is good.. I agree at times having simliar thoughts is good too.. but difference are things that make life interesting... That makes it all the more special to love... to love someone that is different from you... It may be tough.. but isn't that true love...? Cause u don't love the person because of his similarity .. but you love him because of true love for that person...

I guess I will never know ba... I know God has control of the situation now and if he has plans for Xiaoyan and I to ever be together again.. I know he will rekinder our relationship.. our love... and it will be better than before....

The BIG day !!

2006-05-30T08:06:00.000-07:00

Work plan seminar... *sish* My eyes just couldn't keep open... I just don't understand why am I always so sleepy... Like Garfield...The food was good though...*smiles* for once we didn't have to eat the mess food...

"Elvin, Your hair very long yah, better go and cut it"... long meh ? I guess cause its kindda thick thats why it looks long ba... so under the "bo bian" act, chapter blah blah blah got to get it cut... or else someone would get really angry and start confining people liao... cool eh .. got June 1 and 2 off... so its walk out after the parade... *Yesh!*

We had a full run thru last night...we look so good even though some parts of the drill can't make it .. but seriously given the limited time, we managed to come to this standard, its already not bad.. Excellent job guys.. lets hope the real day we will steal the show away... *Cheers* I forgot my "rusok Senjata" my gosh... I was like dreaming and then the parade commander gave that command.. and i executed it couple of seconds later than the rest of my squad... *oppz* it was quite obvious but it was not so bad to that extend that it ruin the whole thing...*phew*

Sianz... the barber experience was BAD ! firstly the stupid queue was so long... had like 2 squads infront of us....but thankfully I managed to to cut the queue *grinz* so in the end waited only for about 1 hour... secondly...the barber was like kindda scary eh .... the moment i sat down.. he started using his shaver and started whacking away on my hair.. I didn't even tell him what to do and he did it by himself... thank God i intervene and told him to cut nicely and exactly what i wanted... and yah.. he did quite and OK job..not the best but for $2 its rather alright *mai hiam*...

Preparing my Number 1 Uniform for the big day ... snip snip .. enlarging the holes for the buttons to slip thru... cause the tailor didn't make it to size... so ya.. have to do the extra work... I also polished my boots... front row must look good... hee hee :P who knows maybe the minister might talk to me ... *smiles* oh no .. what if i have bad breath.. wouldn't it stink him to death.. haha :P who cares... if he faints there.. well too bad... I will pray for his deliverance... hee hee :P Hopefully i can take some nice shots of my friends and I wearing our No.1 uniform *tai shuai leh.. orh*

Korean drama quite cool.. I am like hooked to this romance drama serial "Wedding" it really talks about this couple ..from totally different background... one rich, one so so... the things that they went through before they decided to finally get married... WOW !.. oh not forgeting Jang Na-ra is like gosh ... *pisss* really pretty... like my ex-gf... really beautiful eh ... I really feel that the story line is quite similar to my life.. but its just that certain things are just a flip side... ya... well you have to watch to know more right...

Gotta carry on watching... I can't stop now.. hee hee :P

Sunday...SUN DAY !!!

2006-05-28T04:14:00.000-07:00

The weekends have come and gone... so fast... For the first time i feel that my weekends are so filled with activities... Praise God...

Sat... went out in the morning to buy audio equipment for today's show... bought this really cool wireless microphone which they used for "Super Sunday" haha :P Its really budget but it really delievered like a high-end microphone... *Woopie !!!*

Went all the way to Sim Lim Square just to buy a 80GB 2.5" hard disk.. costed me like $135 but i felt this money and time was really worth it... cause I am installing it into my laptop for someone special to me... Literaly went on a bargain hunt eh ... walk around all 5 floors worth of computer products... Sourcing out the good deals...

Roll Rool Bang.. check.. Roll Roll Bang Check... hee hee :P had parade in the evening.. had to report back to camp on saturday afternoon... So just to prepare for the grand finale... everyone was feeling so low... not in the mood to march... most of us felt it was a waste of our time.... sacrificing for nothing... sadded... :P Thank God the weather was good so the rehearsals went on as planned...no delays.. no time to waste...time is precious.. expecially to us...

Evening was great... No Oreo Frap never mind...what was important was good company and a good night of fun and laughter... Things that money can't buy ... That person knows who i am refering to yah...Praise God... hee hee :P *winks* I really thank daddy for really changing my mindset and the way I talk to people... I really feel much more happier now...Daddy u are great ! I just thank you that things will improve day by day ... and the time that I have with my beloved friends will be greatly multiplied... Smiles and Laughter...

Had a late night trying to format the new laptop harddisk...I kept on seeing 10GB but the thing is that my hard disk is a 80GB hard disk.. I thought something was wrong but jsut proceeded with the formatting and cross my fingers... Praise God... once i was done formating and i checked the space in the C drive.. i saw 80 GB .. so Happy !!! *cheers*

Finally can get some rest... hee hee :p gotta book back into camp tonight... sob sob ... well got no choice.. cause there is some seminar that I have to attend to ... its all in a days work... Smilez.. Lets hope that all these will not persist any longer... or else will just PSL on the floor ah ...

Praise God .. the computer is up and running... just need to install a little more stuff and its done for good... can hand over the project... Yesh !

Major Communication Problem....

2006-05-26T10:20:00.000-07:00

Had been thinking about this issue Communication Problems.. I really feel that all along.. its me who has the problem, but yet refuse to see it... Why am i so foolish ???

I understand now...why does XY not want to talk to me ...or even share with me things... after much thinking...I really feel that I am such an ass sometimes... I really should learn to sit down and listen to what people have to say...patiently listening... not interupting...when it comes to sharing.. think of how the opposite party feels.. think why is he/she thinking it this way... and reason things out... rather than giving a definate NO ! or YES ! answer... I should have phrased it in a nicer manner.. as in .. "I think you should do this because ...." I used to object to her dying her hair cause it damages it badly.. but when she asked me if she should dye her hair.. i just replied NO ! and no reasoning was given... I mean if I were her .. I know how bad that feels.... and at the same time think of the other person's feelings... if the issue is starting to be a strain... just touch and go... do not dwell too long on that issue...DO not ADD oil to fire...

I gotta learn to be more understanding and feel for that person... rather than thinking from one side prospective... I should see the thing on a whole picture... and rather than talking talking talking (*which i am undoubtly good at*) I should really think what I say .. cause what comes out of that gap may really hurt someone's feelings....

One more thing.. I really regret making her look stupid at times... in front of her friends.. even in front of me... I guess .. everyone has a brain of their own .. and they can think for themselves what is right... sometimes..decisions should also be left to the person to make rather than making it for them.. it just makes them feel inferior that ok... u are smart and I am not...

I am changing bit by bit, day by day and I really am praying .. Daddy, make me a better person.. someone whom people would like to confide in... someone one who they can share their problems and at the same time... know that I care...I feel for them...

The problem really lies in me.. for whatever reason .. i don't know why I have failed to rectify the problem.. XY has hinted me many times.. but i fail to heed her promptings... but I know she meant well.. and she wants me to be a better person too...

Daddy.. I really am crying out to u ... only you can make this happen... I know its not within my physical ability...but my eyes are really on you.... I look to you...

Someone to have and hold...With all my heart and soul

2006-05-25T07:01:00.000-07:00

FINALLY ! its over ! my examinations are over.... 2 weeks of continual late nights... 3 packets of Kinder Bueno...tons of twisties packets...1 cup of cup noodles... and a whole ton of reading material... leathal combination...

My body is finally able to rest and sit back to enjoy the little things life has installed for me *smilez* its time to kick of the shoes and just relax ...*arghh*...The examination was tough, i had to do 5 essay questions out of 8 in 2.5 hours...Sish !! I didn't have enough time to finish my 5th question. Basically was just dumping out the relavant sections.. don't even bother to explain the thing... I think my time management sucks cause i didn't have a watch and didn't allocate evenly the time to do the questions...Paper 1 was the killer.. multiple choice... wasn't easy...its worst than taking basic theory test eh... tricky tricky... every answer seems to be right...

Got back from dinner and *plop* on the bed... ZZZzzz... Immediate knock out ...I had the sweetest dream ever...I dreamt of having a romatic stroll with a girl("i wish i could see the face so that I will know how my gf would look like...*darn*") on some beautiful white sandy beach holding her hand...warm waters... enjoying every moment with her... *smilez* just watching the sun go down...we retreat to our "love shack" where we really just wisper sweet nothings.. kissing and hugging on the couch...while chilling on some nice Jazz tracks and wine... Sounding a little mushy :-)

I really hope to find that special girl whom I can really give all my love and in return just love me for who I am... I will shower her with my endless love...dote on her...be there for her...to share her joy,sorrow, and pain... I really want someone that I can pray together.. a girl that I can hug and to hold... The issue is where is this person... I know God has plans for me .. but I really miss that feeling of loving someone... I really hope she comes soon...Am I asking too much ? hmm... I don't know

XH informed me that Perlini silvers is having its 50% sale for necklace and rings... so you couples out there can consider going for it yah... maybe I should go look look see see too .. .who knows I might find something nice for "her" but who is that "her".. i really really want to know...

Hey hey.. samantha called me just now... *smilez* I literally jumped out of my bed eh .. so happy.. finally got someone to talk to.. but sadded... Jiang bu dao yi liang ju.. "Elvin ah i call u later ok .. I gotta board the bus" never mind ... found myself a comfy spot to wait for your call.. a message came.."Elvin I call u later ok ? gotta chat with my friend about something" I was like "DIAOZ !" ....thanks ah... Oh yah .. you know what .. she suggested that I take her sister on loan as a gf *piak on the forehead* I didn't know you could think about that kindda idea... gosh ! but I kindda like it... sound deperate huh ... Samantha you will regret what you say de... when u see me so niceto your sister ah ... u regret ah ...ha ha... kidding eh : P

I hope the day I meet this girl comes soon...we are really going to enjoy loving each other....there will be so much love, fun and laughter in our relationship...*praying*

A moment like this...

2006-05-24T06:33:00.000-07:00

Yesh...Finally I found a very good use for my Nokia N80..I can finally surf the internet and update my blog from the confort of my own laptop..Ha ha *smiles* no need to log on to the network anymore...that means they can't track my access..Muah haha : )I just don't understand why am I feeling so tired these days... I always feel like sleeping...I fell asleep in GL class again ! *hiaz* I should be listening during revision lesson but sadly I have "gone fishing" *nod nod*

Samantha just told me her fever is getting from bad to worst and what more is that she still attends classes and gives tuition...Don't over exert yourself.. health is still very important de..(can't be over emphasied)....must rest and drink lotsa water...The weather is not very good these days...sometimes so sunny and sometimes so rainy

XH..I can see are really very very tired... must duo duo siew yang ya...well hopefully over the weekends we can meet up so that I can pass you the medication for your knee ya...thanks for telling me what kind of a person am I...I just want to self-reflect and see where have I done right and done wrong... Sometimes its very hard to see what kindda person you truely are unless your friends reflect to you what are the good points and the flaws...mine would be talking too much and I am alittle insensitive... I guess sometimes I get too carried away that I start to babble on without thinking of how others feel... I mean thats how i feel when I talk to people or even my ex-gf... Hope that I can learn from here and make me a better person... : -) I feel that after my last relationship, I have come to realise that its important to address a problem in the early stage, rather than waiting till its too late *hiaz* and tempers start to fly....*BOOM !*Ha ha

POP is drawing nearer by the days.. I can literally smell the smoke (Pi wu yan liao) haha *smilesz* 6th July 2006...and to reward myself, I will be going to ... THAILAND (Bangkok & Pattaya)... cool eh .. shortlisted from a list consisting of Australia, Taipei, Hong Kong, Malaysia, and of course Thailand... Shopping here I come...*Whoopie ! * I am going to spend and spend and shop and shop and eat and eat... haha !.. Excitement aside.. My stupid friend still can't confirm how many people going... hiaz.. As usual this problem comes up everytime I plan a trip *I rebuke that curse in Jesus name* and the room arrangement will be a problem.. but if all goes well ... it should be SJ and his "china girlfriend" and me and XH... its gonna be so cool... Gonna have lotsa fun...at a reasonable price *budget.. hee hee : )*

Hiaz XY.. I really don't know what to say..when i heard you were going overseas with him... My heart dropped all the way to the bottom and splat on the floor... *Sadded*...I was really thinking... I can't imagine that you have totally forgotten about me ...There are just so many things running through my brains right now... I downer than down... *Sulking* but i guess I have to come to a point whereby I have to totally let go cause you are no longer mine... I was really hoping to share the first trip with you when we were attached...but why must things happen so fast... *tearing*..The wonderful memories that we shared is totally unforgetable... Hiaz... I am now on my own again... it hurts

Gotta hit the books soon... hope to finish as must revision as I can before the sleep bug catches on...I am so worn out after yesterday's parade rehersal...Keep Me In Prayers...tomorrow will be my exam....

Exam? Is there one coming up ? Hmm...

2006-05-22T17:27:00.000-07:00

Monday morning...A start of a brand new week :P *smilez*. woke up early today to book back into camp. Still a little dazed cause I slept late last night... hee hee :P

Sadded there was class at 9am.. so tired..my brains are just not functioning too good eh ... I don't know for whatever reasons *sigh*..We had GL revision...My gosh, I fell asleep during revision class..and whats worst was that I woke up having a very bad tummy ache..I think must be too much good food over the weekends...Hee hee : )

Spent the afternoon sleeping.. from the time after lunch all the way till dinner...Basically lied on the bed and ZZZzzz....The feeling was the best I ever had...Total knock out, but the ironic thing is that after waking up, I feel sleepy again... I think this is the exam syndrome... Pure Laziness

Heard that Samantha was not feeling too good.. oppz ! I guess its my fault cause we talk on the phone till quite late at night and depriving her of her sleep.. Sorry ah ... : ( Anyway I have already talked to Daddy God and he said you will be fine.. Amen to that ya... Hey Samantha, we should meet up soon.. I miss that Oreo Frap...Last night she said I "Bo Sim" eh ...because I went all the way to Boon Keng to pick XH..then she said Boon Keng was near her place..never go and have supper with her... hiaz...Sam, I will make it up to you when u are free alright ? *Smilez !*

XH...I really admire u eh .. u really got the strength to keep going on ya...Finished work, go for class, after class, go for interview...Gosh ! U must be all worned out....What more u had interview until so late...and the next day still have to work....*salute* Don't work so hard ok ? Money is not everything in life...I understand the importance of money but health is also very very important.. Without health...how to make money right ? : -) If the job is taking a toll on you, well I am sure there are many other avenues to getting another job ba... but whatever the case, follow whats in your heart ya... Wherever the peace leads u, follow it ya...

Managed to study 2 chapters today..*Clap Clap* even though its just 2 chapters but I felt a sense of achievement...Have to understand that I just finished an earlier exam and have no motivation to study...I hope tomorrow things will be better...Hopefully cover another 5 more chapters...The subject is very dry and its very wordy but still have to study, like it or not .. So since I have no choice, might as well make the best of it right ?

Keep me in your prayers ya...

Why has life got to be this way ?

2006-05-21T09:07:00.000-07:00

Hiaz... had a long night.. really shacked out.. Woke up this morning at about 10.30am ... Just refused to study.. I don't know why ... *sadded*. Damn sianz.. .Gotta go all the way to Bukit Batok again .. just to submit my dad's staff pass to the people at SingTel...I really hate that damn carpark eh... I know i went in for less than 10 mins but crap they charge me $2.10 for nothing eh ... What a waste of money !... I think this carpark companies are really money suckers ... most parking spots the grace period is 10 mins .. but i don't understand why must they deduct from me !!! *SCREAM*... I guess they are all out to make money ba...

Following that, went to Lot 1 to pick my mom up ... had a great time shopping..bought tons of stuff that I needed for camp... and after shopping, my family went for lunch.. Something that I have not had in a very long time...The family togetherness...

Lunch was just fab... came back hoping to take a rest before dinner when i heard that XH has to go attend a meeting @ Boon Keng... Knowing that it was kindda far.. i offered her a ride down to her meeting... See I very nice to my friends right *Grinz* Chatted quite abit along the way and I teased her about Mr M and all ....Guess she was kindda irritated ba.. but we laughed it off ba... Sad eh .. after sending her there, I had to drive an empty car back all the way to Choa Chu Kang to pick my parents up for dinner... *sob sob* but thankfully I had the radio to keep me company...

Uncle Yeo was giving a treat.. YESH ! went to his house to pick him up before meeting up with the gang...we went to Uncle Leong eh ... The crab we had was HUGE... hopefully i get to extract that image from my phone and post it online...then u will get to see how big it really is....we ordered like Chilli Crab, Crab Bee Hoon, Bamboo Shells, and a whole load more.. I wouldn't say its as cheap as last time .... but the standard of food is still there...or is it that i am just hungry*hmm* XH messaged me and told me that she was still at the meeting point... and it was like so late liao ... so thought of going to pick her up but the thing was that my dinner was not over yet...Dotz...How was I to leave.. Had no choice but to sit in the dinner and send my parents back after that...

Gave XH a call and she told me that she had finished her meeting.. and again .. I drove empty car all the way to Boon Keng to pick her up...on the way back ya she was so mean to me eh... she whack me.. tried to tickle me.. hiaz...some more say i not supportive .. *sadded* She was so pek chek leh .. She was like a volcano waiting to explode.. which was sonner or later de.... Actually I was thinking.. if you don't like sitting there and listening, then tell that guy that u are not interested la... force yourself to listen for what ? in the end get more Pek Chek... not good for health..

Well sent her back and gave her a nice hug...just to make her feel better ba...well that is the least that I could have done, seeing her in this jia lat state... I also don't know what is best to help her... I guess action speaks louder than words ba....

Its been a very long time since i have gone to church...I really am starting to miss going to the house of God... to listen to what God has to say via Pastor Prince...Its been almost 1.5 months... I feel lost spiritually sometimes... I really want to go back but why am I so afraid of going alone? Is it because of the long queue... or is it because of the unfamiliar faces... I really don't know... i guess its the combination of alot of factors ba... I am just finding excuses for myself... wake up late la... exams coming ah... Daddy I am really sorry... I drifted too far away from you... I want to come back into the house of worship ... Just to enjoy the time of worship and your warm embrace... Help me ...I feel like a helpless sheep...with no directions to go...

I feel so lost ....

Fun & Laughter..All night thru...winkz

2006-05-20T12:16:00.000-07:00

Ting ting, I really don't know what to say about u eh.. but hor... I really should consider charging you for the letter writing service...*$$$-->Rich !!!* Well I seriously hope that the application will go through and you get to study the course of your choice yah...

Went to Plaza Singapura today..bcoz of someone orh.. *eh hem* Don't know who's birthday.. Had planned for something to surpise that person...hee hee :P Remember eh .. I went all the way to PS EH !!!! but before that ... I went to Bukit Batok to get my N80 !! *cool* actually thought of getting the N70 but then when we arrived at the counter, my dad was like instigating me to get the N80 instead cause it looks better and the functions are so much better... but it burnt a hole in my pants eh...$738 with 2 years plan... DOTZ ! Back to PS... I had lunch at Sweet Recipie..It taste GOOD ! ... not very expensive

Following that I went to EXPO.. all the way from Choa Chu Kang to Expo...GOSH ! all alone.. no one to company me ...U want to know why i went to expo... hiaz.. its a long story ....that someone had some event there ... and told me that it will end at 5.30pm.. and me not wanting to be late arrived at 5.25 pm .. Waited and waited ... that person never showed up..called and left a message as good as never call ah... *Sadded* At about 6.15pm finally managed to make contact with that person.. Contact already never mind .. tell me still in the hall.. so dilly delly until about 6.40pm ...finally tat person showed up...Showed up never mind eh ... Somemore dress until so nice... make me feel so underdressed ...*bo sim*Someone wore a black tube dress and i wore Polo T-shirt and Jeans... Anyway you look good in it *grinz*

Funny eh.. along the way like nothing much to talk to that person leh ... I guess she must be so tired until the brain can't think of what to say... Arrived @ Wheellock Place and thought of finding a good place to eat.. but all the eateries are all jammed packed with people...so we decided to go to Apple@Orchard to see what was on sale for the day while we decided on where to makan... We walked along Orchard all the way to Takashimaya.. Thought of eating Jap food...so was kindda walking around before we decided on Pariss buffet...It was some international buffet.. the variety and the taste is just so so only...well for the first time I see her eat more than me eh... Scary ya... Maybe her appitite better than mine ba... haha :P... I ate until my stomach was like 3 months with baby ah... Big big de... hee hee :p

After dinner, actually thought of going home.. then she brought out the idea of going drinking.. I was thinking that it would be quite cool but the sad thing is NO ALCOHOLIC DRINK for me.. sob sob ... *teary*...we went to Clarke Quay and walked up and down..before settling at "One Night Stand" Kinky name right.... *smilez* we sat along the Singapore River... watching couples and beautiful women walk past...Shocking eh .. She can really drink alot.. She drank 2 cocktail.. the first one she drank came with a very rude name ..." blah blah blah mother F***er" and the 2nd one was "Hawaiian Blah Blah Blah"..The name hor very chim... I hear also "gong gong"*blur*... I drank some wired tasting sour yet bitter mixture ... Taste like grapefruit plus don't know what la... We started talking about our relationships.. and was teasing each other about our past GF & BF and the way they treated us... Sadded we are on the same boat.. Both of us kanna dumped haha :P Smilez ... I realised one thing... when she looked at her phone .. she would smile at it... just like how Xiaoyan used to smile at the phone when Andy messages her.. and I told her about the similarity and we just started to laugh it out ... She ah .. couldn't stop smiling when that *elvin message her eh .... I on the other hand was trying to tell her to get over it but it seems like my advice was falling on deaf ears ah ... We just kept laughing and joking about our past relationship and talking about us being single and available and all .. and we are looking for partners .. that kindda thing.... quite fun la... we even started a mini war.. she peeled pieces of the coasters and started throwing at me ... Aiming fail de lor... Most of her "Bullets" didn't even hit me... but me leh .. "BAI FA BAI ZONG AH !" every one that i threw at her hit the target.. *haha !!!*.. Basically dirtied the whole place ba.. we took some photos too ... will post them online as soon as i get them from her *hint hint*

We strolled along the Singapore river and the funny thing was that she kept on asking me "Zhen Mo Ban" then as usual la.. my reply would be "Pi Gu Cie Liang Ban.. Ni Yi Ban...Wo Yi Ban" haha : P... we carried on talking about our relationship and we realised one thing.. we can council each other.. but we can't put what we say into our own relationship... *Sadded* Actually thought of going to MOS but sadly it was kindda late and the party was about to end so no point... Along the way home ... carried on joking and laughing ... and the usual question came out again la... haha : )... Well sent her home and after that headed back...

Anyway wishing you a blessed 22nd Birthday...May all your hopes and dreams come thru.. Be Blessed...

To Love Or Not To Love That's The Question

2006-05-19T06:30:00.000-07:00

Hi all, this is my first entry to my new blog...It has been like ages since I really expressed myself to the world. Anyway this marks a new begining for me.. After 5 years of beautiful relationship, it came to a very terrible halt. As the days progress I will update more details on my past relationships and my new life now that I am a swinging bachelor... :P Smilez... Its really traumatic..I have come to a stage in life where I am so afraid to fall in Love... Geez : (

Anyway today was really tiring, Marching all day long.. preparing for the parade was not something I could put my mind to do...Standing under the sun, sweat dripping, commands shouting all over...*Gosh* What more my exams are coming...Sadded ! Its like back to back.. I finished one paper this week and next week I have another one...There is no break !! *Scream !!!!* and what more we have to do rehersals after rehersals... Where in the world are we going to find time to study !!!

Thankfully we get to book in on monday morning but seriously does it make a difference? Other than a birthday to attend tomorrow, I have nothing else to do, no one special to be with... maybe i should go bowling *Yesh* but then again it will burn a whole in my pocket *ouchie*

God.. All I want is a Girl who Loves me for who I am, and A Girl that I can love for who she really is...Thats kindda deep right... haha :) Well guess if u think that there are any girls that fit this criteria let me know yah... haha :P... but one thing is for sure.. I am not ready to accept another relationship...Hiaz